"Thank you for coming into my life and giving me joy, thank you for loving me and receiving my love in return. Thank you for the memories I will cherish forever. But most of all, thank you for showing me that there will come a time when I can eventually let you go. "

“‘It’s not me you should be worried about. There are bad people everywhere. Even here.’
‘And let me guess. You’d protect me, right?’
‘If it came down to that, I’d protect you in a heartbeat.’

She didn’t respond, but he had the feeling he’d surprised her.”

—	The Last Song, by Nicholas Sparks

I like to think that somewhere out there, on a planet exactly like ours, two people exactly like you and me made totally different choices and that, somewhere, we're still together.

That's enough for me.

And maybe I'll sleep at the station because there's nothing to go home to but an empty fridge and some stale mayonnaise.

And maybe I'll make friends with the guys sleeping under cardboard boxes and newspapers and we'll discuss what it means to love and to live.

And maybe I'll wander the city, one lost particle in a dust storm of Mondays, late nights and reports due yesterday.

And maybe I'll get on a plane or a ship and get lost in places I've never been lost in before.

And maybe I'll keep my phone on me in case you call. And tell me there's something to come home to.

i never thought that i have so many people that care about me so much..

never knew the action of me taking emergency leave all of sudden last Thursday cause lil chaos in the office.

it was when adeb told me what happened. i realized that love does still exist.

and also, that last night conversation that i had with someone..made me realize that im not actually losing anything..but gaining more ..

and last night dream, was the most pleasant ones..i know its crazy but yeah.. i cant really tell what happened but i might just tell adeb about this.

Thank you ..to each and every one of you. thank you for always being there..for loving me..for supporting me..most importantly..knowing that i did my best. =)

lets just say.. that one month (plus) ship wreck has finally rest in peace. and a new boat has come up.

i tell myself time and over to stop dwelling in such wishful thinking; it gets me no where. but still, i dream on..

"..I'm with them because, despite everything, I still love them. And while you might walk in and find me punching a wall, it's only because I want to kiss their lips.

There's no revenge here.
Love doesn't hate back..

Maybe it's because you're one of those people that believes that sometimes, the most reckless thing you can do with your heart, is not being reckless with it.

If time takes me (and time will take me), I will come back as a single feather.

So please come back as a breeze. .."

- iwrotethisforyou.

"I may never be happy, but tonight I am content. Nothing more than an empty house, the warm hazy weariness from a day spent setting strawberry runners in the sun, a glass of cool sweet milk, and a shallow dish of blueberries bathed in cream. Now I know how people can live without books, without college. When one is so tired at the end of the day one must sleep, and at the next dawn there are more strawberry runners to set, and so one goes on living, near the earth. At times like this I’d call myself a fool to ask for more…"

Sylvia Plath

i dont know if the pain is gone..or if im just getting used to it..

"I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair. I hate the way you drive my car, I hate it when you stare. I hate your big dumb combat boots and the way you read my mind. I hate you so much it makes me sick, it even makes me rhyme. I hate the way youre always right, I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry. I hate it when youre not around, and the fact that you didnt call. But mostly I hate the way I dont hate you, not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all..."

maybe im just in the wrong situation..or wrong timing..

or maybe this is another God's brilliant plan. (no im not being sarcastic here.)

i know this isnt the feeling that i just can fight..

but somehow i know..i just have to live with it..go through with it.. doesnt matter if i like or not..

doesnt matter if others like it or not..

i just have to live with it although i know...somehow..

sigh~*

while the world around me is going insane..

morning talk

i was preparing my lesson this morning when Calvyn all of sudden came up to me with this question.

Calvyn : So Nani , do you still hate men?

looking at calvyn in a glance...

Me : yes. *grinning*

Calvyn : how big or how small it has become?

Aaron : or is it this tiny bit? *like a pinch*

Me: its thissssss big *while showing how big the gap is between two hands*

Calvyn : shook his head and laugh * ayoo this lady i tell you..

Aaron : then abis i? you hate me and calvyn and the rest of us too laa?

Me : i hate them generally..but i love some of them. .you're my neighbour, he's my boss..of course la i sayang korang! hahahahahhaha

Aaron : ok .accepted.hahahhaahah

dear boss,

next time, please ask another question?

like...do you want a new car? =P

(akibat kalau boss ada fb ..sigh~*)

"..Everything seems easier when you say it in your head. But once you have to say it out loud, it's a hundred times harder.."

penipuan yang sangat indah

i was browsing through azam's playlist yesterday when i came across this song....i forgot how much i really love the song..not to mention the singer too (oh, jared! *~) ....

life is indeed is just a game n constantly you will have to go into battlefield every now and then ..

either you win or lose..that is the second thing. what matters the most is that you get into that battlefield and fight until your last blood. do you best, and whatever the outcome is..you know you did your best..and no one can say that you lose the battle for nothing.

okay..apa yang aku merapu nih? whatever.. hahaha

everyone has their own theme song. mine, i guess would be just this.. for now..

.

Question : Hows your life at the moment?

pretty quiet.

content.

i cried most of my nights and meetings with Him. but i try to get out of it quickly.

still trying to mend.

i long for..i miss terribly..but i have to keep it to myself.

i try not to talk that much..not that i don't want to..i just don't feel like it.

but im bless..

because i have good n loving family & friends that's always there..

it keeps me going

at least, the reason for me to go on living..

thank you. Allah.

shmily..ihurdfahwya..

so i continue to write my stories here..

"Who knows how long I've loved you,

You know I love you still.

Will I wait a lonely lifetime?

If you want me to I will.."

The Beatles.

Sappy introduction? i've always been the hopeless romantic type..hahahahah .. well okay.. here's to the new one for the new year.. i'll write more soon.. =)

*little star*